Blessed Be Everyone,

My deepest apologies to all for my extended absence, distance, and lack of communication. All the amazing and painful events of last year finally reached a saturation level within me.

The time spent with my father in his final stage of life was a gift of unimaginable value. That redirection of my time, energy, and focus took an incredible toll on most other parts of my life. In addition, the extensive and extended periods of time spent with my father and younger sister brought up all of our old family hurts and pains. The strange combination of distance from the normal primary rhythms of Beloved/family and work/practice with a proximity to ingrained familial conflict brought the same message to me over and over. The same message that has been coming to me from many different corners of my life as well as reverberating through our community, the need for transparency.

My new found need for transparency across my life has demanded a re-establishment of the most primary foundations and boundaries of my agreements (contract) with my Beloved, Dianne Duenzl. My professional and personal life have been based in a very high degree of confidentiality since the beginning of our relationship. It was a consciously included part of our agreement with each other. The insulation and protection from the occasional turbulence in my work life, that confidentiality provided, was instrumental in the growth and stability of our home in the past. Now, with my slow and cautious movement into the Sacred Sexuality community over the past couple of years, I have realized how much the need for that level of confidentiality is based in shame and fear (things I can not continue to facilitate within myself) that eventually lead to distance and a break down in communication.

The past few months have been focused on strengthening our commitment to each other and our established life together, and rebuilding the support and understanding of each other's passions. We are slowly working through all the different aspects of my work and community-based friendships to establish what Dianne can balance with in the immediate future and what more exploration and boundary setting we need to do together before balancing that outwards as an offering or availability in the community. As a large part of that, Dianne has agreed to accompany me to this years Daka/Dakini Conference in Sedona. I hope you will all welcome and embrace her as you have me.

I am heading off for a short respite at the Sedona Temple/School this weekend and will have my phone turned on and will answer all calls. I will also be endeavoring to reach out over the next week to contact as many people who have sent me messages over the past number of months (that have, so far, gone unanswered) as I can. I also plan to re-initiate my monthly visits to NYC and the surrounding area starting in April. I only have a small number a loyal patrons left after all of my absence and inconsistencies over the past year. I hope to re-invigorate my practice in the Northeast from the position of the new strength and support with my Beloved.

Thank you again to all for your love and patience.


Blessed Being
Patrick M. McGee-Russell